Outside Im Smiling But Inside... Poem by Kasi Navadomskis

Outside you see me smiling
And floating through each day,
A little tired, a little thin,
But overall okay.
But you didn’t hear my anguished thoughts
Which surface every night
They plague me, haunt me, torment me
‘Til I’m too weak to fight.
And so, next day, I came to school
With deeply shadowed eyes
I smile, laugh, and speak on cue,
Living a pack of lies.
A silent scream echos inside,
Reaction to my lie-
‘Til with no warning it erupts
And I crumble down and cry
Come find me, help me make it stop-
No! Keep out, go away!
For is you come, I’ve no control
Over the words I say
Can’t you hear my silent scream,
Decipher what I hide?
So come and ask me what is wrong,
Come sit down by my side
If nothing else, then please read through
This tangled web I weave
For your really not the one
I’m trying to deceive
Help me-I don’t know what I want
I’ve lost my guiding light
Please hold me, let me cry and say
Somehow, you’ll make it right
Perhaps deep down, I know what is wrong,
What keeps me up awake
What is the source of all my tears
And ever there heartache
But not yet can I face it,
Or maybe I just won’t
Please someone help me understand-
God only knows I don’t.