Pain And Brokenness Poem by ESPN CHICK

No one has to know that I'm broken
But I could have swore that they can see the brokenness in me
By looking through my two eyes

If you need to take a picture of my broken body
Then do so and look at it really hard
And tell me that its lying

I wish you only knew what its like
What its like to wanna throw yourself off the edge
To rid all of your pain and anger

Always having to hide
Cause everyone I go to
Says all the wrong things

Carrying pain on my back
Ready to lay my body down
Down under the ground

You tell me to relax
And say that everything is okay
But you don't even know

Tomorrow could be another painful day
You will never know what it feels like
To cry yourself to sleep late at night

Figured out that is my lullaby
Feels like I can cry for a thousand years
Thats how many tears I still have left after all these years

I wish I had someone to save me
To wipe away these salty tears from my eyes
To fight away this pain I hold inside

I wish I had someone to hold me every night
Sitting by the fire in the winter
Sitting by the pool in the summer

But now its to late
To much pain for anyone to save me
No one wants a girl who has pain and who cries every night

I'm threw with this agony
Taking it with me when I go
And I hope it is soon

Though I know I'm not ready to go
Not ready to end this life
But deep down I feel like thats the best thing for me and everyone else