Please Listen To What I Don'T Say… Poem by Rajee Amlani

"Hold on!
Calm down…
Control your temper….
Relax yourself…"
Is any of this actually possible?
Is it possible when you're hurt?
Possible when you feel like
Your heart is shot and
Broken into pieces?
Possible when you have fallen
Down to an extent that
You awe getting up?
I don't think so….
At least not when you're repeatedly
Smashed, broken and wounded….
At least not when your friends
Repeatedly break your trust….
Sometime I wonder,
Is God playing a game with me?
Am I the only one in his mind?
Is it only my life which is so messy?
But I hide these feelings…
I don't want anybody to know them...
I panic if people know about them I'll be proved weak...
I fear that everyone will know...
That beneath this smiling face lies...
A world of confusions, fear and loneliness…
Pretending that nothing is wrong,
Has become an art that's second nature to me.
Just because I'm scared...
I wear a mask, thousands of masks...
That I'm afraid to take off...
None of those are real me
My smile might give you the impression
That I'm secure...
BUT,
That is just a mask.
An ever - changing and ever - concealing mask…
I am tired of pretending now...
It's like I am living in a cage...
I want to liberate myself from
My own self built prison walls…
From all the barriers I have built...
I want to assure myself… That I am worth something…
I don't like to hide...
I don't like to play these superficial false games….
I want to be genuine and spontaneous...
Above all I want to be me...
THE REAL ME…! !
- rajvi amlani std 10 snk…!