Product Of Time Poem by Lee Rodriguez

Thinking of the times that I can't stand the thought of you
Thinking of things that made us fun
Can't really accept you just yet as a friend,
but you can find in me that little piece of friend you left behind
You hurt me, you made me believe that I hurt you
That has never been my deliberate intention
I thought about it,
I hope you understand why
You asked a lot of me,
I never turned you down
What I'm about to say is cruel,
but needs to be heard
You need to hurt as bad as I
to gain understanding of what you had
If you need to be left alone,
if you need to be disappointed as much,
it won't be the same
Will you need to be ignored as much?
You have not lost enough
I know what we had could never be regained
It's not the same
I could never wish ill will
I have not kept secrets
You know who I am
But do you know what you have made me?
I'm not the same
You took patience and trust from me
that I turned into strength and wisdom
Will it ever happen again?
Only fate knows
Will I know when I see it?
I hope so
Now this is me,
not what you thought
Product of what you taught