Ray Of Hope Gone Circular Poem by Gokul Saravanan

People dont understand
the reason am here...
Am waiting for the only one
yes, thats u my dear...
I want u to be on my side
to give me cheer...
a tear from ur very eyes
is what i fear...
the love i've shown u
until now is mere...
i promise u d bestest life
forever...
U accepted?
i thought u would never...
when u come close to me
my heart shifts to next gear...
I dunt know if this is right
its not clear...
but i gotta fight for it
stay by my side my dear...

I dont have the feeling of love anymore...
I am drained of my energy....
I no longer exist in this world...
am now in the realm of shadows...
filled with essence of darkness...
the stain of the innocent on me...
coldness in my veins...
hatred in my eyes...
ignorance in my muscles...
pain on my shoulders...
fury in my fists...
fire on my legs...
worser than a corpse burning...
thirst in my throat...
thirst for blood...

I was once a soul seeker..
seeking for souls of people...
but now i am drained of mine...
this is far from fine...

Is there no one to help me? ?
Hey! one sec.. i'll call god..

Oh mighty protector of the sun, sky...
I beg of thee, heed my cry...
Transform thyself from orb of light...
bring me victory in this fight...
I beseech thee brace upon my humble game...
before that i shall call thy name...

Oh man! no answer...

hope of light..
chances of survival...
is slim...

But i never give up...
i am stubborn...
or is that what i say to myself...

I am so much alive to this world..
but inside am nuthin but dead...

People always misunderstand me...
for every word i say...
i dont intend that...
but all go hay...
i beg them...
hope they may...
understand me...
some day...
till then am nuthin...
but a mould of cLaY...
i wish...
i could play...
but on it the hands...
of fate lay...
lay...

slaved by myself...