Return Of The Gnawing Pain.... Poem by K J

Do you still think about me
Waiting silent and resigned!
Do you still ponder in your head
What might have been?
The lessons you would have taught
Stories you would have shared

I am unobtrusive and patient
No longer shall I lash out in anger
For my anger has well been extinguished.
For why stay angry and temperamental, for one who is gone forever...

All I needed was a friend...
To bring out the best in me
Showing me the world through learned eyes

While the best kept knowledge is
That of which is experienced by one's own self
For it is interpreted based on experience and thought
Aren't life's lessons as such?

Where is she? Why did she leave...
Those thoughts haunt me night and day
Singing and lamenting on what was
You realise what you once had
When now it is at a loss
Never to be replaced
That hole can never be filled
Not after what one has gone through

I just need to see that she is here
Silent, silent, quiet and whispering
A few words, a nod of the head
Is all that I require
To keep my empty pain sated

Memories are but memories
But we are past any point of reconciliation
Are we not? You tell me? Perhaps there is still time?
I've tried, I've wept and screamed and tried
And now thoroughly defeated and knowing
That I cannot fight you
Let us be companions once more
Like it was before the politics arose
We are flesh and blood
Are we not?

I leave you to your thoughts.