Reverses Poem by Suki Nakamura

when you left me, my bitter-sweet lover
i was sitting on the floor
naked, my hair spread like a waterfall
as you close the door
i was groping myself like a hand to my body
on a dark night
when the light of the candle
shut off

nothing rekindles
no one comes back like the rain to the cracking field
my days have become nights
my nights turn to days

my face is twisted and all the previous smiles
do not know the lips
i must have gone mad with the way they stare at me
a stranger without a name
a woman running in the street at night
under the rain

what more can i ask of this self? answer me
dear death.