Roll Poem by Princess Moultrie

The axis of my world is changing
tilting in a different direction
i lean my head to the side
trying to still the spinning
the dizziness
the body morphs as i shift and mold it
it holds for a time
then crumbles
crumbles in my shaking fragile hands

everything goes haywire
out of wack
bizzare
life as i know it is changing
cant hurt myself like this
never again
never.

i need to cease the pain that i give myself
the ones that cause me to shut down

i dont think beforehand
before i make the decisions on what to do
the acts that i want to complete

i need to stop this
stop the insanity
before its too late
too late to go back and change everything
all that ive done to hurt myself
straight into 'perfection'
hurting the ones that try to help me

i just need to give up
stop having those thoughts
ones that say that i could be better

truth is,
me being myself
i am the best i can be for the time being

(16 Oct.07)