Sad Poem by Emilia Tejada

I wanna die
with all my heart.
Because i see
no1 needs me here,
but they tell me
to stop cutting
and all i want is 2 be alone
but my soul
itself told me 2 stop
I was fighting against
my torn soul
i cant see why
im here
i cant do anything
im not strong
the pain is the problem
the death is the exit door.
I cry in my pillow
and look out from the window
i see the dark sky
and i start 2 cry
i dont no how
i dont no when
im gonna die
I dont no
if i will meet my true love
because its hurts so much 2 b alone
I keep looking 4 help
but no1 seems 2 care
I try 2 b strong
but i feel weak and torn
I loved some guys
but they never relized i was alive
I 4got about them
i didnt try 2 make them see i was there
but now i dont care
because im gonna go away
I am still wondering
why i never meet some1 who loves me bak
is it me?
or is it them?
I dont no whom 2 blame
I wish and wish
with all my heart
that if no1 loves me
i wud die.
Im so torn apart
when i c nothing works
i dont no anymore
if 2 keep fighting on
I am even wondering
if i will ever meet some1 who loves me bak
because until now the only ones who love me
are idiots and retards
and i even wonder
if some1 loves me
but doesnt want me 2 no
I wonder if i will love him bak
I cut with a knife
knowing i have no way out
I bleed
i scream
no1 looks up at me
no1 seems to even hear me scream
I try 2 do my best
2 take my mind off this
but i cant whenever i see more and more
people with their true love
and i cry
every night
saying 2 myself
that this is enought pain
i dont wanna live anymore
i no no1 needs me
and i dont think i need any1
I hope i get this pain off me
but i no i wont
because im just not strong enough.

xXxMillyxXx