~save Me~ Poem by Raquel Hayes

SITTING THINKING THAT ITS OVER
WATCHING LIFE PAST US BY
WANTING TO FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ALL THE TIMES I CRIED
FOR ALL THE PAIN I SUFFERED
FOR ALL THE HARD TIMES I'VE ENDURED
FOR ALL THE TIMES I HAD TO LOVE MYSELF WHEN NO ONE ELSE WOULD

EXPLORING THE EPITIMY OF MY SOUL
TRYING TO FIND THE ANSWERS, BUT ALL I SEE IS DARKNESS
AND A BIG UNANWERED QUESTION MARK.
WHY AM I HERE, WHAT PURPOSE DO I HAVE
I TRY TO LOVE EVERYONE BUT IT SEEM THAT NO ONE CARES

I'M USED TO IT BY NOW, FEELING UNLOVED AND HOPELESS
FEELING LIKE NO ONE'S, THERE MY HERAT WAS ALWAYS BROKEN.
DISTANCING MYSELF FROM PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT GOOD.
TRYING SO HARD NOT TO LOVE THE PEOPLE I NORMALLY WOULD.
DARKNESS SHOULD ONLY BE FOUND IN THE ABYSS,
BUT WHAT IF YOUR LIFE IS AN ABYSS, AND IT WANT QUIT.
WHAT AM I TO DO, WHOM AM I TO RUN TO.
MY HEART IS A BIG QUESTIONMARK, WAITING TO BE ANSWERED.
IT'S A DISEASE STRONGER THAN CANCER.
I'VE ALWAYS HAD TO FIGHT.
BORN MISERABLE AND HATED WATCHIN LIFE FADES. FAMILY FUSING AND FIGHTING, ALWAYS IN THE SHADOWS HIDING
DID YOU REALLY KNOW ME? DID YOU REALLY SEE? ALL THE PAIN I WENT THROUGH, HOW BAD I WAS SUFFERING.
NO YOU DIDN'T, NO ONE CARED.
I WAS NEVER IN THE MIST, IN THE GRASP OF YOUR AIR.
I WAS ALWAYS OVER LOOK LIKE A PROBLEM THAT COULD BE FIXED.
BUT HERE I AM 17 YEARS LATER STILL IN THE MIX
RE LIVING THE PAIN OVER AND OVER AGAIN.
GOSH PEOPLE GET TIRED OF GOING THROUGH THE SAME THING.
FOR A LONG TIME I REST MY HEAD WISHING I WAS DEAD. THINKING BOUT EVERYTHING PEOPLE EVERY SAID. DREAMING ABOUT HAPPINESS BUT NEVER SEE IT COMMING, HOPONG AND PRAYING ALWAYS YEARNING.
TO TAKE BACK THAT DAY, MY LIFE BEGAN TO FADE, MY HAPPINESS BECAME DUSK, MY HEART BECAME RUST, MY LIFE BECAME CORRUPTED, MY JOY BECAME ABDUCTED.
NOW, MY TEARS AND CRIES ARE LIKE RAIN, FLOWING DOWN A LONELY LANE.MY VAINS AND SKIN IS BURSTING.
IT TAKES AWAY FROM THE EMOTIONAL HURTING.
LAUGHING AND SMILING BUT ITS SO UNREAL.
DEEP DOWN INSIDE I AM FILLED, WITH EMPTINESS, NOTHING,
YOU CAN HERE YOUR ECHO, JUST WAITING FOR THE DAY SOMEONE CAN FILL THIS HOLE.
MY HEART BLEEDS, MY SOUL SEEKS, MY MIND SPEAKS, ~SAVE ME~