Say Some Thing Poem by Joyleen Heneker

Why doesn’t any one reach out
Why does it feel every time I breath
It feels like my last breathe
Why do I sit there screaming in my head
No one hears a word I say
I repeat my self on every thing I say
Yet so many people say im very brave
I sit there watching people pass me by
Listening to them laugh
Hoping one day ill be the same
Looking at all the scars on my wrists, legs
Yet im not scared a bit
My blood is my poison
My heart torn to pieces
Wanting some one to mend it for me
Expecting people to see who I really am
Keeping my secrets to myself
So wanting to scream out loud
Every mistake I make
Adds to my list of failures
Im so scared that Bella will kill me
Shes taken over my life
My will to live
My strength has gone
I cant go on
Im dragging every one down with me
Im not worth the effort
Im not worth the time
My life is distorted
Im tuck here in a world of my own
Waiting for some one to drag me out
And say some thing
Waiting for some one to reach me
Waiting for those words I want to hear
Help me save me