Searching Poem by Deborah Cromer

Do you know how many times over and over I say your name
How many hours I have spent here just watching the flame
Sitting here looking into the fire and feeling the heat
Warming my soul, I am wishing we could sometime meet

I miss you, you told me I would miss you when you were gone
Now days slowly go by, they roll away fading on and on
Time is lost, I am losing hours by not being with you
How can I find you, will I ever see you again, what can I do

The only man I would ever give my life to for love
Thanking God always for giving me the chance to rise above
Now I am high, soaring the heights, as alone as one could be
What can I do to reach you, how do I turn the key

I wish to open the door that keeps us apart
I am dying inside, I am bleeding within my heart
One more day without you and I will fade away
Without hearing your voice and feeling your touch, I cannot stay

No reason to be here alone when I need you so much
No reason to breathe anymore without your magic touch
The light is going out, I am down to the last burning coal
Darkness awaits, the journey over, my lost and lonely soul

Glowing embers of the last piece of burning wood
I would restart the fire living if only I could
The fire of life, the heat of true love I wish to restart
Impossible though, if you do not feel as I, within your heart

I need you to give me breath, buy maybe you are happy with her
You have stayed together, by her side, maybe your love is pure
I cannot break you two apart by only my own selfish greed
If you two are meant for each other, I will go without what I need

I need you, I am so unsure if you even need me too
If you love her dearly and truly, I will have to be without you
Sacrificing my soul to loneliness, my dying heart will bleed
My life will die, my love will starve with off of nothing to feed

Your love was my food and without it I will surely die
We might be okay, but I have no answers, I do know you can lie