Shadow At The Door....(Revised By My Friend Bullet Cookie...Thank You..It Helps) Poem by Kaila George

I wanted to write something to heal but wound up just rewriting what I felt was the heart of this account.

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Kaila George He stood an eternity
a shadow at the door
vanishing as he appears
leaving me secure in thoughts
to sleep sweet childlike dreams interrupted
Betrayed and infiltrated by his present
nightmare replayed on WHAM!
Waking in a stale night air
breathing in foul delusions stench
Sweat on hand that covered mouth
terror muffled cry now sealed out
Body, hands and trembling fear
beneath an odour of lingering beer
Minutes, tainted feelings from this dread
time blacked out by horror's fed
Flashback tears upon my cheeks
this darkness still in trauma creeps
Was it just nineteen and virgin stead
A joke, now degradation's drunk snoring
Innocence lost like wasted space
blood that was lost along with beliefs
Cold nights of terror, as child's dreams claimed
in compromised reality over and again
In flickering lights and ghost of the past
in ages of rages and simmering cast
In alien born hate and vengeful oblivion
he left me here dis-tain in scarlet letter living

revised for Kaila George by cec