She Poem by Stacey HudakGrant

I see her staring out the window pondering the way things should have been.
There wasn’t one of her plans that didn’t include him.

Her life was wrapped up in him, she knew no other way.
Her life, she thought, was for another day.

She left with no friends, only her two babies.
She’s feeling overwhelmed, it’s getting lonely lately.

Stuck is how she feels, she has no way to get out.
Most of the time she just misses him, it’s all she can think about.

She’s talked, and tried to beg, plead, and fight.
But, he fights her back with all his might.

Her desire for him now overrides any self respect she ever had.
She lets him hurt her because she scared that she’ll lose him, but would that be so bad?

She’s turned into a person that she doesn’t even like.
She’s puts up with everything he gives, she doesn’t want to lose her Mike.

I try to tell her that she deserves more, hurt is not love.
She can not listen. In her eyes no one, even herself, comes above.

She takes care of her kids alone. No help with dinner or baths.
But, she does it willingly waiting for the day that he comes back.

She’s on her own, and though it hurts, she just can not move on.
Her love and dedication to him keeps her loyal and perpetrating a con.

She could just let him walk away, it what he wants to do.
But, how to live with out him, she doesn’t have a clue.

Her fear is paralyzing her, she can not take one step.
If she really loses him, she fears she’ll have nothing left.

Her fear and love has her in a constant state of shock.
She feels that she could fix it, if only he would talk.

Can’t she see that his unwillingness is indicative of his care.
If he can’t even respect her then his heart must be bare.

He lacks the ability to treat her the way she deserves to be.
But, still I sit and wait until the day that he chooses me.