She Moved On...Me In The Balance Poem by Paul M. Mayer

A wisp of darkness engulfs the light
As I slip into this dark night
A night I won’t recover from
No matter how hard I try to run.
I still will run, run from me
Run from every fantasy
Every single one I had,
About her, those, that made me sad
I am depressed from jealousy
My heart is ripped, and thrown to sea
My bloody hand it trembles so
Never to hold hers again I know.
Know even though she is alive
It is not me she wants to strive
I try my best to just move on
But here she is, even though she’s gone
Her spirit lays in rest with me,
Holding my hand, me feeling free
Free from darkness, only then
Until I slip back into sin
Sin of dreams and fantasy
All of her, all of glee
Then I face reality,
One of sadness, one of me
And then the truth stares in my eyes
As blackness eats the pretty skies
I will not see her anymore
Only in my dreams, and on the shore
Because despite how hard I give my tries,
She peers in my heart, not in my eyes.