Shouldn'T Poem by Rose Marie Cook

Life shouldn't be this hard
At least not in the begining
Is this how it's supposed to be?
Am I really living?

It shouldn't feel this bad
It shouldn't hurt so much
I shouldn't feel so empty
As if I can't be touched

I shouldn't cry night after night
Praying to someone I don't believe in
Asking Him to end it

I shouldn't try so hard
To please everyone
I shouldn't want this ending
But it seems to make me happy

All I want is to leave this place
To be forgotten; without a trace
All I want is to be dead inside
A heart that doesn't break and is as cold as ice and rain

All I want is for Him to take my soul
To discard my body and move on
I don't want to feel anymore or cause
Anymore pain

All I want is to die
And it shouldn't be this way