Sick Of Myself Poem by Matthew Petranovich

Sick of myself
yet again,
Running to somebody else,
a new friend,
cause I hate it,
I lived with myself for
17 years,
I still can't pay the bills
for myself,
These people are
starting to hate me,
even I am sick of myself.
And I know I'm crazy
and I need help.
All this writing seems so pointless,
It is only a fake ointment,
sooth the pain but don't take it
away,
I'm feel so ashamed in myself,
I need out
or I'm gonna shout,
Gonna burst,
and it will only be myself that,
I hurt.