Silent Addiction Poem by Rebecca Pepper

Feel alive, oh how it feels so good
Don't do it on purpose, can't stand the looks
You never knew, never understood
Just how it makes me want, makes me feel
And now im different, separated, alienated
But you won't care; it's too much to bear

How badly I want to tell you now
Show you what stops me being with you
But can't show what my heart will not allow
Nor can I face a fear that is so near
So I'll sit back, relax and let the blood flow
Because they won't see what won't let me be

Look now, look and see what I hide behind
See the scars; tell me what I should do
To this dark fate am I truly resigned?
Or is there something to help fight this need
I feel so restricted, convicted to feel addicted
Why does no one hear me scream and plead?

So silently I shall burn in these screams
None shed a tear for something they can't hear
Never knowing more than what it seems
Won't try to see what is hidden in the lie
Unless the dead walk and the mute talk
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