So Hard Poem by Dominica Wolf

This is just so hard.
I know,
I know it won't leave me scarred.
Even though I feel like it will.
Why don't you like me?
It's so sad.
Well to me at least,
It's a drag.
I wish you would just fall.
Fall as hard as me.
Why?
Why can't this be,
Be so much more easy?
Screw this.
It hurts so much
The more you play with my emotions.
But I let you do it so easily.
I just can't believe me.
Butterflies running so freely.
As you step near me.
I love the smell of you next to me.
Our breathing in sync,
As you set me up on the bathroom sink.
I can't believe how you touch me.
The butterflies returning so quickly.
I can't believe you.
I can't believe how much I like your hands.
How they graze mine.
How can you play around with me?
So easily...
Doesn't it make you feel?
Feel guilty?