Sonnet Of Grieving Poem by Haris Rigoo

i cry and feel hopeless
i feel so lifeless
depressed to a new level
forced into this living hell
to never be seen or heard
it may sound absurd
to melt into the background
wishing i had never been born
to die and be forgotten
wanting to just exist nowhere
out of the world in a different place
where not a soul will know me
to start over and forget my problems
to just feel so alone and empty
hollow on the inside and to sad to care
i grab at my insides, nothing there
but pain to real to explain
makes me cry out in vain
oh, yes it may end tragically
with a need to be understood so badly
not a soul can truly know
it is to hard to show
the biggest truth not a lie
is how it really hurts inside
makes one do what it the worst
pain so powerful you will burst
you want it to be over
no luck from a clover
rabit's foot or a horseshoe
the luck you thought you knew
would save you from this
your luck may miss
its red bullseye
and you don't want to try
to hold on anymore
go through deaths black door
because of what has been done
no light from the sun
and darkness awaits
all with this fate