Suffocation Poem by Patricia Gillaspy

The pain is suffocating, my head is barely above water;
I feel like I'm drowning, can this get any harder.
I am barely holding on by fraying little threads;
I can't get the feeling of death out of my head.

The psychosis coming out, is ready to kill;
Killing me softly and slowly, I'm feeling quite ill.
I feel I cannot be saved, from the death that's about to occur;
I try to hold onto my relationship with You, to feel more secure.

I'm trying real hard to overcome the sadness, pain, and guilt;
By Your Grace I am saved, but right now that's not how I feel.
I feel like the scum that corrodes the bottom of your shoe;
What to do about these feeling stuck inside, I have not a clue.

They're eating at me, clawing, trying to get out;
These times are so trying, I'm having a lot of doubt.
I am punishing myself with what little life I have left;
I scream, I cry, trying to hold the evil to it's depths.

PLEASE! PLEASE! I beg of You to come save me from myself;
Or soon it will be too late and I will play the cards I've dealt.