Swan's Song Poem by Twisted Moon

So I'm back to writing and it's all the same
My heart still beats your name
Only now it's more than ever (I'm suffering forever)
Not just in pain.

I just want you so bad
I never should've gotten so mad
I should've listened to what you had to say (but I ran away)
Because I'm just like my dad.

I'm just so afraid
You're so much more than just someone I laid
You're all I think of (the one I l*ve)
The best mistake I ever made.

So I'm breaking my own heart
By pushing you away so we can restart
I knew it wouldn't be easy (and not to sound cheesy)
But I didn't know it would be so hard.

And from the bottom of my heart I apologize
And you smile at me, tears forming in your eyes
You tell me I did nothing wrong (but for so long)
You believed in my lies.

I guess I did it because I want control
Control of my heart, control of my soul
You had way too much power in your hands (the best laid plans)
A terminal goal.

And now I just want you back
But it's all messed up, it's out of wack
If this happens again it has to be right (maybe it might)
But it's courage I lack.

And how can I say I believe in free will?
When you are right there for the taking and I don't seal the deal
I don't know what it is you see (in a wretch like me)
A rotten orange behind a ripe peel

But when I think about our special bond
It is unnatural, it is beyond
In my heart I know this wasn't a trend (this can't be the end)
I am the swan and you are my song.

I just want to cuddle with you in my bed
To stroke your hair and kiss your forehead
To feel ur soft legs against mine (intertwined)
To know that our l*ve will never be dead