The Cost Of Loving You Poem by Shelly Price

I hate that you have the ability to make me cry...
why...I sigh...
for relief from the pain.
Do I win...lose...or gain?
Do I move forward or step back...
look ahead or behind?
Where is the sanity...
I need to find...unwind...
let go of my heart...so I can start...
to rebuild the life...torn apart...
by loving you.

Left in shreds...my emotions raw...
I saw love inside your eyes...
lies...farewell and goodbyes...
over and over again.

I pretend...to defend your actions...
but inside I crumble...
from the rumble...
and then humble myself by wanting...
and needing...pleading...for you to see...
that I continue to be...
all for you...and less...and less...
and less for me...by loving you.

Was it yesterday or today or tomorrow...
that I close this book of you and me?
What is there left to see...
how could it be...over before it ever began...
you ran...buried your head in the sand...
and expected to command...the respect of me.

I gave it to you...I gave it all...
you let me fall...hard against your protcetive wall...
I call...for you to rescue me from the pain I feel...
it's real...and hard to deal with...
each day I give away...more and more of myself...
by loving you.

I have to stop before I can't go on anymore.
I wanna soar...and feel the roar...
from the lure of life...
in love with a man not afraid of sharing...
and caring...giving...and living...
being one with me.
I must face my reality...
and say goodbye to the man I know to be my destiny...
before it utterly...and completely...
destroys me.

Today is the day...I must walk away...
I can't stay...I can't play this game.
I can't continue to pay the price...
the cost is too high...I must say goodbye.
I need to let you fly...and be free...
so I can be...once again...
ME...
totally...and completely.

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To E.M...the man everyone knows I write about...the man I must let go of...I now have closure and can put an end to the pain of loosing you. You are and will forever be...EVERYTHING to me. I love all of you and will miss...all of you, my dear friend...until the end...I'll be loving you.
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