The Love That I Do Not Deserve.... Poem by RIC BASTASA

i want to link with you
in a manner that it would be metaphorical

well, we are completely not alike. The contrast
is beyond their understanding. Nail and jel.

button and mushroom.
electric eel to a percolator.

opera house and a cancer hospital.
comfort room and space lab.

we are too far. I am from pluto and you are
from venus.

i hate mosquitoes you live with them.
i love letters you like fritters.

but (i really like you and i feel so irrelevant
and i look at myself in the mirror and i begin to
hate myself. I will be another moron.

another jackal. Much like an ash after the
holocaust.

i want to have you but i vomit at the same time
at this thought.

i may close my eyes and for a while dream about
what i imagine you to be.

seeing you, i feel this stupidity.
but what can i do? i like you. and i am feeling
so helpless about it.

i'd hang my qualifications upon an onion tree.
kill myself with sugar and chocolates.

i told that kid, i will report you to your dad.
and then i shut up.