The One Who Broke My Heart Poem by Ashleigh Gaffney

I'll never forget the person, who made my body weak
Who always thought he was right, and never let me speak
I'll never forget the father, who hid me away out of sight,
And I'll never forget how he scared me, how he gave me such a fright

I'll never forget the insults and the names
And how he always looked so deeply ashamed
I'll always remember the heartache every time he spoke
And how hurting me so badly, to him was just a joke

I'll never forget the loneliness or how he made me feel
How hard I tried to show him, that I had feelings, I was real
I never was his daughter, I never was his pride
I was nothing special, so I was told to hide

While the other was shown all the love, lived off all the cheers
I was in the background, staring into a dark world close to tears
The world I lived in had no light, never had a thing to show
But now I've learned that I must move on, it's time for me to go

Even though he hates me, it no longer leaves a scar
I'll help other people, no matter who they are
Money means nothing to me, all I search for is love
but the hate that I grew up around, won't leave me, not even when I'm above

Just because I couldn't achieve, the top grades to make him proud
All because I didn't sing on stage, my freedom wasn't allowed
I'll never forget the father, the one who broke my heart
And how my world he messed up so much, how he continued to tear it apart

He told me I was a failure, no good, would never succeed
And although you couldn't see the wounds, inside I would always bleed
He told me that I'd never get far, like my sister I'd never be a star
He shouted and criticized what I did, until I'd given up and hid

I had no hope for my life, had no future in his eyes
He didn't stop there, he then started on my size
He laughed and sniggered all my life, and made a show of me
He ruined such an innocent childhood, and he couldn't even see

He couldn't see a hurt person, he couldn't see what he had done
But he wouldn't ever stop, not until he was done
Not until he'd killed the girl he'd created, that he never wanted to be a part of his life
Not until he'd made sure, the child grew up full of anger and strife

When he knew that his plan was working, he'd broken down a life
He'd even convinced the mother, he'd also changed his wife
I don't care how much money I have, or how big my house may be
All I care is that I'm happy, and one day I find someone who loves me

He's told me time after time now, how he's disappointed in what I've become
but he doesn't understand, even though he knows what he has done
But I'm allowed the freedom, that's when I'll make my way
To the family that are waiting, who love me and take me in one day

I have my friends around me, to help me through,
and I know that's all I need, to help me to do what I need to do
One day I'll have the job, of caring for the sick
And no matter what he says, I will have already laid my last brick

He can no longer change me, create a monster from a confused child
What give him the right to mix my emotions, and so young, let me out into the wild
He never gave me encouragement, or said he'd always be there
for I always knew he wouldn't and that he never really cared

For what I do now will help me, become the person I used to be
And one day I hope he'll understand, all I wanted was to be me
I'll love my children dearly, and stand by them with what they do
and I'll make sure I'll always tell them 'darlings, I'm so proud of you! '

All I search for in life, is the love I never had
I no longer need the money, it means nothing, it just makes a person go bad
I'll never look down on the less fortunate, and always treat each person the same
I'll never forget you father, what you did to me was such a shame

How can you want so much, To hurt one of your own
A parent to hate so much, I have never known,
But no matter what you do now, and how you put me down
In the close future I'll be smiling, and you'll be stuck with the frown!