The Pain Behind The Words Poem by sandy nobody

behind the words i write
are things noone sees
my words are my thoughts
feelings, they are of me

i put my pain into words
my way of letting it out
without hurting anyone
calmly, no need to shout

for years i kept them inside
out of shame, out of fear
kept all my feelings hidden
year after year

was never allowed to feel
as a child
to have feelings
meant you were wild

then grew up
got married too
still feelings
you couldnt do

i decided when
my baby came
i could no longer play
the no-feeling game

i loved my kids with all my heart
i told them always
i hugged and held them
showed them, in many ways

i didnt want my kids to
have no feelings inside
grow up cold and lonely
empty, dead inside

after years i finally left
that thing called marriage
was nothing but a cold
empty cage

im much happier now
iv still a lot of hidden pain
im letting it out in my words
so i dont go insane

the pain behind my words
is real
the pain behind my words
i feel