The Struggle Poem by Travis Johnson

all I need is a hug
I can find peace with that
I mean, tell me that I am loved
cause I'm not seeing that
did you know, that I'm an alcoholic
I keep it on deck
and, with these mental issues
the old me ain't coming back
I JUS WANNA! ! !
relax my body, relax my mind
stay in these calm moments I have
let me freeze those times
I don't want these angry rages
where I'm afraid to go outside
I don't want that guilty conscience
because of my hands, someone has died
I'm sorry let me stay calm
someone say it will be okay
all I have to do is make it through the night
tomorrow will be a brighter day
I need to get myself to the car
and jus drive away
I don't know how to tell people what's wrong
when they ask if things are okay
I'm going to my comfort zone
to pull out my best birthday gift
let these words touch my soul
and make my body jus sit
I jus want to let yall know
the emotions that I'm dealing with
and after reading these letters
I realize I'm not alone at this
remembering that last line
is what I gotta do
tell me, why do I cry
while yall jus snooze
going through these storms
is the calmness coming soon
I don't want you to walk in these steps
please don't wear my shoes
but I, gotta keep going
I gotta live
I know I have a great support system
within my family and friends
giving up is to easy
I wanna work hard at it
and I will never give in to the pressure
that's the promise I made my kids