Thoughts In Sadness Poem by Stephen Carey

I try to find words
To describe how I feel,
But it all comes out in a mess.
I feel such pain,
I cried, today.
I tell you, I’m an idiot.

There is no
Room inside me
For love or fear.
This sudden sadness
Is a cloud
Covering all my emotions.

How can I
Feel what I feel?
How can I
Think what I think?
I’m a monster.
I’m an idiot.

I want to run away.
I want someone to care.
I want someone to talk to,
But there’s nobody here.
I want to stop crying,
But I want to cry again.

I feel there’s nothing left.
I feel there’s so much more.
There’s so much I want to say,
I want to say it to someone.
To someone I’ve known so long,
I’ve known so long I’ve wanted to talk to you.

Nobody else knows about me.
No, I’m all alone in this, today.
Yeah, I wish someone would come
And take this loneliness away.
I wish someone would listen,
I have so much to say.

Why don’t you ask me what’s wrong?
But don’t ask if you don’t care.
I want someone to say something,
But at the same time, I want to be left alone.
And if I’m left alone,
I blame everybody else.

I want everything to be right.
I feel everything is wrong.
I think I finally know what’s wrong,
I know it can’t be right again.
The truth is the truth doesn’t matter,
If you can’t do anything about it.