To Indifference Poem by Ann Yearsley

INDIFFERENCE come! thy torpid juices shed
On my keen sense: plunge deep my wounded heart,
In thickest apathy, till it congeal,
Or mix with thee incorp'rate. Come, thou foe
To sharp sensation, in thy cold embrace
A death-like slumber shall a respite give
To my long restless soul, tost on extreme,
From bliss to pointed woe. Oh, gentle Pow'r,
Dear substitute of Patience! thou canst ease
The Soldier's toil, the gloomy Captive's chain,
The Lover's anguish, and the Miser's fear.

Proud Beauty will not own thee! Her loud boast
Is VlRTUE-while thy chilling breath alone
Blows o'er her soul. bidding her passions sleep.

Mistaken Cause, the frozen Fair denies
Thy saving influence. VIRTUE never lives,
But in the bosom, struggling with its wound:
There she supports the conflict, there augments
The pang of hopeless Love, the senseless stab
Of gaudy Ign'rance, and more deeply drives
The poison'd dart, hurl'd by the long-lov'd friend;
Then pants with painful victory. Bear me hence,
Thou antidote to pain! thy real worth
Mortal can never know. What's the vain boast
Of Sensibility but to be wretched?
In her best transports lives a latent sting,
Which wounds as they expire. On her high heights
Our souls can never sit; the point so nice,
We quick fly off-secure, but in descent.

To SENSIBILITY, what is not bliss
Is woe. No placid medium's ever held
Beneath her torrid line, when straining high
The fibres of the soul. Of Pain, or Joy,
She gives too large a share; but thou, more kind,
Wrapp'st up the heart from both, and bidd'st it rest
In ever-wish'd-for ease. By all the pow'rs
Which move within the mind for diff'rent ends,
I'd rather lose myself with thee and share
Thine happy indolence, for one short hour,
Than live of Sensibility the tool
For endless ages. Oh! her points have pierc'd
My soul, till, like a sponge, it drinks up woe.

Then leave me, Sensibility! be gone,
Thou chequer'd angel! Seek the soul refin'd:
I hate thee! and thy long progressive brood
Of joys and mis'ries. Soft Indiff'rence, come!
In this low cottage thou shalt be my guest,
Till Death shuts out the hour: here down I'll sink
With thee upon my couch of homely rush,
Which fading forms of Friendship, Love, or Hope,
Must ne'er approach. Ah!-quickly hide, thou pow'r,
Those dead intruding images! Oh, seal
The lids of mental sight, lest I abjure
My freezing supplication.-AII is still.

Idea, smother'd, leaves my mind a waste,
Where SENSIBILITY must lose her prey.