To Your Heart I Ask Poem by Adriana Flores

Nothing compares to the confusion i feel, i want to yell and rip my heart out to see it better close up.
I want to see what it feels i want to see it beating for you cause inside i just can't feel it anymore.
I have no idea how much longer i can put up with this, i might walk away tomorrow and never look back or i might still stay and fight for our love, for that feeling i get when you're not around, fight for that future we planned together late nights on skype.
Now hold on let me finish this long message, yes there's more i feel so much more than any amount of words could ever express i can type all day and this feeling just won't fade, but why does our love have to end?
i'll tell you why, because i asked you to do one simple thing for me and you proved you're not down for this, how could you say you love me and be willing to let me walk out of your life because i made you choose, how could you say you love me and tell me you aren't obligated to send me a couple dollars the money is just whatever that's not the problem, the problem is that you don't feel obligated you sure don't have too but when you love someone-at least i feel I'm obligated to you, to let you know my every detail, to give you my last breath if i had to.
Just think about it baby, how much pain can one put the heart through b4 it starts to give up, how many times must we cry to let the pain out and keep the heart from bursting, how many times can you break and heel my heart with your words? think about it cause i do it every day and i think the answer is finally coming this way and I feel like catching it but my heart tells me to dodge it and i want to catch it cause i can feel the relieve that comes with it.
No more pain for you no more pain for me is this all worth it, could you see yourself with me after death, could we live to love one another for eternity, idk it starts to sound like a pretty long time and well i just don't think my heart could hold on any longer.
Can you try to understand that at this point any little hostile word you say causes soo much pain, my heart is wounded and in hiding right now and i can't seem to make it come out, if only you could talk to it, maybe you can be that light at the end of the tunnel that leads the way out and if you don't know then neither do I. M
maybe your heart knows? Knock, knock, hey there this heart of mine needs you to come out and show yourself it needs to hear how you deal with all this pain how you keep yourself strong!
well i'm not done so hold on just a bit cause right now i'm trying to conversate with your heart this poem is my way of telling you how i feel, so listen up and pay attention to what your heart says cause after he speaks mine might respond. Just tell my heart what it will be like when we meet remind my heart of those nights we had together in the city, the long walks, and the way our never ending conversations gave birth to this love, tell my heart about the future now how we want our babies to have your beautiful smile and those dimples that add to it so much more sunshine and give hope to my heart, how we want to travel the world together and grow old and gray, tell my heart how much this pain will be worth then!
-Bea