Too Damned Afraid Poem by Vision Ghost

Took so long for me to realise
Sought comfort in others eyes
Wasn’t as strong as I thought
When all the tears it brought

Fell upon empty hands broken
From an agony so unspoken
And now it’s falling upon me
Only one thing left to be free

Too damned afraid to admit this
Ashamed of myself when I look at me
Can’t reach out without fear of being hurt
All over again so it’s easier to be afraid

I look away from their faces
And shy from innuendo graces
That I can’t understand anymore
Falling away from trust so sore

Held my heart and it got broken
In so many cruel words spoken
And now it’s falling upon me
Only one thing left to be free

Too damned afraid to believe this
Ashamed when I look at the past
Never want to ever be so hurt again
Thought I knew it all until I felt this pain

Lost all the connections
Can only see objections
Will let this heart fade
As now I am just too afraid