Too Much Cryin' Poem by Alicia Gomez

I want you to look at me honestly
And tell me that you dont see anger or jealousy
That you dont see the pressure for me to stay strong
When im trying so hard not to fall
Because when I look at you look at her
I know inside that you'll never look at me that way with those eyes
But I gotta turn my head and fake a smile
Pretend I'm fine meanwhile
I feel like im about to cry
Because im so sick of all the lies
And I cant let love make a fool out of me
Because you see its already done enough damage to me
I feel I'm about to crack because I cant take the pain
and its driving me crazy
I think I'm going insane
Because loving you's not easy
Seeing you together breaks my heart
Not in half
But a million pieces shattered
But I cover it up becuase I know to you it doesnt matter
But if you looked deep inside my heart you'd see
Some secrets, lies and how I try, oh how hard I try
To have you understand I'm not just any other girl
And how much I would kill to have you in my world
But I just have to move on and walk away,
Head up high like its a brand new day
And everyday you see me,
With my smile gettin' bigger
That's just to cover up the fact that inside
I'm crying you a river