Transparent Poem by Lauren C

I don't want an I'm sorry
I don't want an I love you
I don't want another lie
I trusted you
Swallowing up everything you told me
Hiding myself behind your idea of perfection
I lost myself in you
I gave up the most important piece of myself
And you crushed it
Like it was disposable
Like I was worth nothing
I loved the feeling of being loved
So much that I gave you everything
Without leaving anything for myself
I remember the I love you's running through me
Like air
I became dependent
Living for something I thought was real
But you're an illusion
A pretender
Building you up in my mind
Molding you into the person you should have been
Instead of realizing the person you are
So do me a favor and spare me the bullshit
Because I see right through you.