Trapped Within Myself Poem by Crimson Haze

Friends, enemies.
who is who?
Your mental wall keeps building.
Higher and higher,
thicker and thicker.
Soon the friends you did have that were able to brake throw your wall.
Now can not find a way in....
I want to let them help,
but don't know how.
You get so upset your mind shuts down and I got numb.
They just want to help...
I keep telling myself this but for some reason I can't make myself believe it.
The more questions they ask the more you feel you need to protect yourself.
I block them out.
And now you are closed in yourself,
safe.... so you think.
calm.... for now.
Until....
You need to get out..
You want to get out!
But now know one wants to help...
and I'm so locked up inside my self who could help?
The darkness is closing in on me.
Constricting me.
Closing in on me.
But I can't pretend,
I can't fake the fact,
that there is know one,
that can save you,
from yourself.