Turning Thirty Poem by Trevor Toews

I turned thirty today.
The twenties silently packed up,
And walked away.
As if they have no sentiments at all.
I hollered after them,
But they were already frolicking,
And they didn't hear me call.

I want to live them once again
For at twenty, ah!
I was bigger than Life back then.
I was reckless at the reins
Nimble on the precipice
Swift at shedding pain.

I grew, but Life grew faster still,
I didn't see it drawing up beside
Until
It was a stride or two ahead
And pedal as I did to gain,
I lost instead.

Did I consent when placed upon the chair?
Upturned faces assembling all around.
Buzzers sounding, expectations everywhere
I looked.
Face to face with this new truth,
I didn't have the wisdom that it took.

Life, I used to have you by the horns!
I didn't see the tables turn!
That decade leaves me powerless and worn.
Now, I catch a glimpse of what's required of me
I cry because I am afraid
Of who I need to be.

Lord, these three strides that I'm perpetually behind,
I won't close them on my own,
Without Your wisdom, and Your love I find
I lose when I'm alone.

I want to win.
Be my Ally, help me face
With courage, this new decade I am in.