Twisted Mind Poem by Miiya Skky

Stranded in silence, with nothing but my thoughts and memories can be overwhelming at times. Not only am I alone in my own head, it's the emotions that comes with every embedded image burned into my brain that seems to be holding me captive with no hope of freedom.
The fear I fear most in life is losing myself in my own mind. Wondering forever in the ciaos that was built by my own and tormented with the disappointments and faults I endured along the way. It almost feels like running in the darkest of the night, trying not to fall in what seems to be like quick sand that once stepped in, slowly starts to swallow me and knowing that even if I cry for help no one is going to be there to save me.
As my body is trying to struggle to survive in the world I left it in, my mind tries to die with every intention of taking me along with it. Sometimes when I watch the stars at night I whisper underneath my breathe wishing that when I awake the next morning I would have no more unwanted memories or thoughts but to only have the good.
It's a hopeless wish that will never be heard, it can be pointless to some. Still I will always find myself sending out a wish every other day, only because it makes me feel the excitement of what if.
Throughout time, we grow old and our memories will eventually fade away. Leaving us with a blank stare as we look into the world, trying our hardest to pull a simple image of our past. It seems like the memories I don't want to reminisce about are the hardest to forget, and the memories that hold a special place in my heart are the ones I'm slowly starting to let go.
Once I feel like I'm starting to set free the memories that causes the most pain, I come across new ones taking me back to that place I tried so hard to run from. Its like living in a nightmare that tortures your essence of life, what makes you, who you are starts to die. Left there only to start over once again it begins to feel hopeless, knowing that even if I manage to escape I'm forever damned to return to the dark.