Untitled ((Unfinished)) Poem by Autumn Keele

I wish I was going through it instead of you.
It was tough for me but still, I got through.
My life changed from that point on,
people that I loved were suddenly gone.
They didn't understand like I thought they would,
It seemed like we got further apart then I ever thought we could.
I had to lie to make things right,
That was the only thing that could stop most of the fights.
I pushed away the ones that loved me the most,
and now im scared you'll do it...and we are so close.
It seems like right when I give in and I begin to fall,
something happens and I loose it all.
Thats why I've been so scared to love again,
Thats why it has taken me so long to let you in.
This is all too familar to me, it's happend before,
only this time, i'm on the other side of the door.
I'm so scared that you're going to push me away,
and that you'll 'realize' that this is just a phase.
Listen I give up, I love you with all of my heart,
but I'm so scared that this is going to push us apart.
I really don't want you to push me away,
but i've gone through this, it's going to happen no matter what I say.