Up Poem by Lubna Hazeem

Shades of October
Are turning themselves over
You're sinking by the corner
Of your heart's dramatic closure

The bottom of the chain
For reasons you refrain
Nothing here is sane
And who am i to blame?

Feeling the hunger
That's flaming your thunder
You blink and you wonder
Now you're upside and under

Bursting out of shame
Searching to reclaim
No reasons to obtain
And no motive today

That's what you always say
That's how you always play

But life is not a game
And life was never sane
And you would always be stuck
While everyone's up, you're chasing after your tail
But that ship has sailed, and the truth you've nailed

It's all you've got to offer now
And you've got to let it out, out, out

She says: yesterday was luck
She says: today is misfortune
I say: yesterday was loved
Today deserves a portion

A glimpse of your eyes gives me so much
The words in my mouth were never enough

Everyday is a load
Everyday brings hopes
Everyday in my life is new
And i could never be without you

So don't go away, don't go away
And i promise you, im on my way
Oh, i know that im on my way up

I learned how to obey
I learned how to disregard
I learned how to behave
I learned how to blow apart

But everything confuses me now
I feel like im displacing my doubts
But you come and say let it out, out
Because it's all you've got to offer now

She says: Yesterday was luck
She says: Today is confusion
I say: yesterday was enough
To bring you devotion

And i know your eyes give me so much
And I swear that im beautifully crushed
And i could never be enough, without you