Wall Of Fear, Honesty And Religion Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

How did you break through?
It was fear that protected me
It was my wall of honesty
It crumbled like it built out of nothing but dirt
Brought upon all kinds of hurt
The unspoken to even the closest friends
I could never truly let anyone in
Was it pride?
Was it the lack of understanding?
Names can never brand me
Because I know of so much worse
Even as I say what could of happen
Help wasn't really what I needed
It was what I believe
Held together with ropes so strong
A mental brick wall
But even the strong sometimes fall
How do I build it again?
I no longer fear it
The truth holds my own conflictions and contradictions
If I was psychologist, I'd be scared
I am over analyzing again
But it can't be helped
Especially when I'm feeling like this
Understanding is all I got
And some days its just not enough
But I still pull through
I always do
Because I built the morals to which I adhere and follow
It would bring happiness to most
But all it does is relieve the pain
That would otherwise drive me completely insane
Religion has made me sick
Because of what happen
I went on with an idea
That could be found and followed as I lay the foundation
That was one of my revelations
I mixed rules with an unnamed god
Karma seemed so much better then heaven
Even the pegans 3 fold belief stuck
Mix and match what I believed was right
Then I put it under a candle light