Brad Phillips

my heart goes out to you. I lost my main man 11 months ago and my heart is broken unmendable i think about him 24/7. He was 16 i do not live i exist i so much want to be with him. I have other younger children that worry me so much it doesn't make it easier as i look at them and see him and as he is the 2nd son i have lost i am panicky thinking i am gonna lose another i have four more 3 boi's and a gurl, It has drained the energy right out of me. He was 6'3'' and 20 stone hence my nickname for him baby bear. I am 5'7'' and 11 stone had him when i was 16, he's all ino and i can't even think of his name without breaking down. It will never get easier. Just want him home safe and where i can cuddle him and keep him safe: (The sentences they were giving is a joke but thats the system for you, you get that just for assault these days. Big hugs x