What Have I Become? Poem by Bancroft Boreland

I saw life as a meal
And I wanted to consume it all
I was at the apogee of happiness
Until I suffered from a fatal fall

Then I went to the cemetery and buried my dreams
I took my heart and hid it
Below the bottom of the sea
I have become someone I don’t want to be
I am floating in a sea of danger
But there is no one to guide me to the harbor of safety
A perpetual sorrow dwellet in my soul
For the past I lust
Because the future seems so ominous
In nothing do I find solace

I am a stranger to myself
Who is this person that I have become?