What I Believe Poem by Brett Nave

Why don’t I die?
I want to say bye
I tried lots of times
Sometimes I convict crimes

My life is Hell
I wish this I could sell
Please let me go
My life cannot flow
Life doesn’t flow like a river
Most of the times I get the shiver

I can’t be free
Free as the sea
I wish I was
I can’t get a buzz
When I’m not free
I’m on an absentee

I hate this
I can feel Hell kiss
Man it burns so bad
I wish I could be sad

Why doesn’t God Call?
He watches as I fall
I see no love
As I look above
He chose to let me be
So I guess he can’t see
I wish he could
Actually he should
He should see all
He chose not to call
Why did he do that?
Feels like getting hit by a bat

I want to believe
But I think I should leave
I’ll go my own way
I lead myself astray

I want to know why
But I feel like saying bye
When the sky cry’s
I guess he tries
But sometimes I wonder
When I hear the thunder
Is he mad?
Is he glad?
Dose he even care
Just looks with a blank stare
He can’t change his mind
None of this I can bind

I sit here in class
Wishing I was laying in the grass
Well I guess snow
But what do you know
The only thing on my mind is him
But he seems so dim
Does he hate me?
I wish I could see
Man God
You’re so odd
I just wish
Screw this
No more wishing
I hate it like fishing
My wishes never come true
Just like you
I use to believe in you
Now you make me blue
I wish you were real
Then maybe I could heal
I’ve been hurt
I’ve been burnt
I guess you don’t care
How is that fare

Get out of my mind
You’re making me unkind
Ok look
You read me like a book
You can see what I’m going to do
So why me and not you
Think about it
This is something you can’t fit
Why did you pick me?
And not maybe he or she
I’m not smart
I don’t do art
I suck at school
Man I’m not cool
So tell me why
As you look at me from the sky
Is it me you hate?
I think I’m just bait
Do you love at all?
Just watch me as I fall
I have a horrible life
Its sharper then a knife

When I die
I don’t want to fly
All because of you
Flying
Means trying
Something you’re not
Listen to me
And maybe you’ll see
I’m keeping you out of my mind
So maybe I can be kind
And that’s what I want
Because this is my hunt
That’s is all
But listen as I fall