What I Feel...... Poem by K J

Now is not the time....
Now is not the place....
I'm just another ugly face in the crowd....
So don't come any closer,
If you don't care....

You are not the first....
But I assure you will be the last....
How many were there before, you may ask? ? ?
You say you are just one more....
I know better....
Others were just passing phases...
But in you I see my end....
You are the only one I truly care for......

Do I need you, want you? ? ?
Yes, indeed I do..
Do you need me, want me? ? ?
Perhaps I already know the answer is no...
is it? ? ?

I exist only for you today! ! !
But can you live for me? ? ?
Maybe not...is it so? ? ?
I am just a devil in disguise... perhaps! ! !
Ain't no friend... possibly! !
Am just another child of the darkness.... you think! ! !
Just a selfish lover, it may seem so...

Am I that easy to read..
A boring book called me...
But this book is incomplete...
You have to find the missing chapters...
Before you dismiss it as boring...

Would you pray for my soul....
If only you want to...
Would you pray for my salvation...
If you cared enough...
If you prayed for the above...
It means you pray for my death...
If you can't be mine...
Cause sure as can be...
Not having you in my life.. will be my death...