What I Feel Poem by Elena Toledo

After every month, I know
you are near, I wait anxious
but for a moment I think of how
you take me for granted.

I feel like I’ve been violated,
I feel used like when
People use a cloth, and then they
throw it out, or like when a child

throws his toy after playing
with it for a while, because
Is old or it looks warn out.
I feel like you need me, but

only for a moment, not for the
time I deserve to be needed.
It's been five months, and I
feel like I’ve never been with you.

I feel lost without your love, without
that little time you bring into my
world. I need to tell you what I feel,
how much hurt I have in me, but







how, how to describe this to you.
How, how can I do what is needed
when all I feel is pain.
why? , why is it that loving you is

so painful to me. When love should be
like flouting, feeling light headed
with distractive thoughts that make
one feel intoxicated with love and pleasures..

The passion, the unforgiving love
that settles in my weary walls.
In my senses, and in my existence. Why
do I not feel the love, if it is you who I love,

Because loving you is all I want
to do, why do I not feel it? The love,
I just don’t feel it anywhere.
Not in the air, in your words, or
in your touch, or your absence, why?