What I Have, I Do Not See Poem by VUSI CHRIS VENUS MALALA

So bright and dark that I cannot see my way and my future
The life that I live is set to change other people's lives
It's in the life that I live, the love I give and the people I lead.
The problems I haveand the money that I have
funny that I share it

Sweet sweats of leisure search the heart that isfilled with joy
But still I was blind to see; for all I have I cannot see.
The beauty of pens, pearls and pains push me to work to earn
Respect so the people can applaud and cheer the greatest of all times

Tears, fears and peers echo their sound to my ears to find that I am fearless and fierce.
The courage that drives me is eternal
But sad that all I have I do not see
From dusk till dawn, my thoughts of peace are crushed into pieces when I realized I had peace and now it's gone... temporary gone

I may not see it but I can feel it
The love that I give is ever changing but the trust I had is still pending waiting for time to stop...

Where is it? Where are they?
Can anyone answer me or show me what I have?
For all I have I do not see
I can see my darkest nights, hear my silent thoughts and touch my imaginations
It's all I see, all I have

In dreams I land in peace, with desire I find love but still couldn't see
Everything had to start with me before I can give to others
Should love me first, trust mefirst, respect me first and all those things I see now
Can't help it... These are just dreams

What I have I do not see