What If She Had Poem by Ramona Thompson

Think about it
That's all that I'm asking
Just sit back and take a moment to think about it
She was innocent
We both know that now
But what if....
What if she lied and broken your heart?
What if you had't been her only one?
Who would you have choosen then?
Where would we all be standing now?
I guess love what I'm really trying to ask is this
What if she had been cheating?
Would you have left her?
Would we be together right now?
Or would you have broken my heart all over again and stayed?
Forever by her side


Wasted time and a wasted heart
God only knows how much I loved you
Still do
Always wanted you
More then mere words alone on this page can say
Never will stop
Fingering the wound upon my broken heart
Praying that someday
The tears I keep on crying for you will dry up and go
Forever away
Never to return to haunt me again
With more useless dreams and wishes for what I can never have
Each and every night
Weeping and whispering to myself
Oh God please!
I have to know
What if she had?


Dying inside
Everytime I see you with her
It kills me just a little bit more
Thinking
Contant and unending
What if she had?
God help me but what if she had?
Would that be me over there with him?
Would we be the ones planning our future together today?
I swear it's all that ever goes through my head and my heart
Wondering if secretly
Way down deep in your innermost heart of hearts
Do you too ever dream about the answer to this question?
What if she had?
Do you think you might could have loved me?
If she had.....?


So many tears
Too many tears and nights I have spent restless, wondering
What if it had all turned out so differently?
Would I?
Could I have stood a chance?
Sometimes I wish that parallel dimensions were real
Cos maybe
Just maybe in one of them she would have been what everyone thought
She would have broken your heart
Who knows?
If that rumor I heard had been true....
You might have been mine to hold
Forever and a day
Then never would I have had to be alone again
Bitterly wondering and asking you
One last and final time
What if she had?


I'm sorry
More sorry then you will ever know that we'll never know
The answer to that question


What if she had?


I wish that I knew.......





2006 Ramona Thompson