What If Tomorrow Never Comes? Poem by Danny Speicher

Dreaming a dream as a child would dream
Out upon the ocean, out past the stream
I, wishing for nothing more than I had
I, wondering when tomorrow might come
I, pondering just where this dream came from
Of me, on the ocean, just a small lad

Alone with the waves I rocked back and forth
Somehow questioning my heart's true self-worth
An odd question for a child so young
An odd feeling of doubt stirring within
An odd, oppressive, fear came forth therein
A sinister lack of hope filled my lungs

'Alas, it's a dream, ' I heard myself say
Tomorrow will bring a new, brighter day
Even still I remained frightened and numb
Even still I doubted what I had said
Even still I questioned within my head
Oh God, what if tomorrow never comes?

What if the fear inside of me remains?
What if ghosts of past echo their refrain?
Will I descend into madness alone?
Will I die a man forgotten by time?
Will I lose every friend gained in my prime?
How can one conquer fear of the unknown?

Oh, Lord, save me from the fears of my past
Lord, comfort me, for memories come fast
Raise me from this mistrust within my heart
Raise me from the lack of hope I have felt
Raise me from the depression I've been dealt
Lord, for your purpose, please set me apart

((October 29th,2009))