What Your Sun Reflects Poem by Timmy Tubbs

And the sun reflects everything that pinches
Even me
And the blackest of your galaxies
Will all eventually be pulled
To the sea

A smile to fool
A clever joke to bend the real questions
In everyone else’s mind
About me and mine
How I’m still trapped in your sunshine
Only highlighting the faults with the fantastic hidden
Reaching from the shadows
Falling below to a place no one wants to go
Where air drifts off snow

Just when I think I can make it
You sneak a peak back to me
Toss in another fake apology
And I’m right there sniffing you again

But I’m still catching you with old mitts
I haven’t got the new one broke in
Still wondering if it fits

In a pit with your lions
We circle like Romans
Wondering if they will put up a fight
Or purr in their last moments
I’ll take a handful of dirt and release slowly
Crack my neck
And bring death before you precious minutes

You lean from gold chairs so confused
And I smirk
“What? You thought I would lose? ”

“What else have you got! ”
“Throw anything you want dear”
You should have known
It was your sun that drowned my fear
So take two more steps and I’ll tie your neck in a knot
And that gentlemen sitting beside you,
That’s my spot

And you will wonder of ways to read my maps
And the day’s smile will be taken with his faking yours
And a forced lonely nap
Never will feel the same
An honest girl is what the summers remember
Back when you were tame
But now plastic cups circle your life
You think it’s the only way
“It’s a shame.”