When Reality Hits Poem by Caitlin McGonigal

Sitting here distrught; wondering what to do.
And yeah there are good times but only a few.
Not enough to clear the cloudy skies;
& the smile i wear is just a disguise.

It hides what iv been through and what im going through,
Cause i have to look happy through your point of view.
All of these feelings building up in my chest;
Im ready to give up and im feeling depressed.

My hope went missing and is nowhere to be found.
The smile i once had has turned itself around.
The people i call my family and friends,
are all going different ways like split ends.

People tell me to be positive; more optimistic about things.
But its hard when your relatioships are more thin than strings.
Those 'strings' were what was holding me up,
and there isnt a fix for when those strings get cut.
Those cuts end up leaving scars.
And when reality hits...
is when things get hard.

If only i could find what i once had...
A life where the good outweighed to bad.