Where Am I Poem by Clara Diskley

I just stare out the window
thinking where am I
I have so many thoughts inside my head
Falling apart, too fast
You don't say anything, ignore my words
As if they were never heard
Today could be the worst day for me
That's not me, that's not the person you see
It isn't the first, it's been worst

Sitting here, makes me sick
Butterflies, all around me, then it struck me
I'm getting closer, getting far away. I suddenly realize where it is,
I can not say anything, anymore
So, now I'm down on the floor
Down on the ground, trying to not make a sound
But it's something that I can't take
There's no way that I can make it
All because of that day

I can feel the pain, it's all over me
Yet you can not see, what you're doing to me
I can feel it in my vain, yet I can't explain
The pain hurts so much, it's been here for so long
Someday, I say
It will change, till then I guess not